Thursday, August 28, 2014

OPEN LETTER FROM FABIO TO FABIO

Well its now 2:26am August 28, 2014. I writting this letter because I have a lot on my mind. I can't take the fact the harder I try the more it seem I haven't tried enough. My goals are my first priorities but something is DEFINITELY wrong with me. I just feel my life is tragic, I dnt feel loved and those who claim to love me I'm not so sure about. I spend countless hours at night mostly stressing feeling like given up. Ima HART so I feel like I will be really lowering my stock by doing so. Suicide has cross my mind plenty of times especially since I calapsed Monday August 25. Battle demons within, there is a dark cloud over me these days. I make no excuses for this because its all my fault my body and health has taken a tremendous blow. I focus more on my goals and success and my celebrity then anything. I will admit I'm use to winning some how it has came pretty natural to me. Dealing with adversity has always stress me out. I really feel orphaned because my isn't as close to me as there are with others yet I smile and take it in with stride. Friends has envy my ability to WIN which has hurt me a bit because these are people, whom I thought would always be apart of my life. I also feel I fucked up a lot of great female relationships either working like a slave or allowing other females to rail road my situation. I just want feel like a failure from all angles. I have travel coast to coast, north to south speaking, motivating, and trying my damnest to be the best me as possible. I feel the weight on me now is more than I can bare. I'm trying not to lost myself to self destruct but it seem that's where I'm head. I'm never content. People just dnt understand the vision that I have and image that I wish to project with that vision. R.I.P to my mother however mom I believe I will be joining you soon.

In closing will like to thank the people who has motivated me in some way, fashion, or form. I really have a problem with not on trying to become respect business but with celebrity at the same time. Don't ask me why I have an obsession with celebrity I just do and don't know why. I just feel I'm suppose to be celebrated and helping people reach their goals to.

Here is a list of people I admire and want to I do.

BRET HITMAN HART, I just want you to know you impact my life more than you probably know. Through you I started to believe in me and my ability to be better than anyone else.

DON LAPRE, R.I.P I know you no longer with us here in flesh but I will never forget what you told me. I appreciate what you taught me.

GURBAKSH CHAHAL After reading your book I so how feel I know more than I do because we battle some of the same things. We very close in age so I so how think that I can produce a simular result in my industry as you do with tech.

MICHAEL JACKSON I miss you dearly and never forgot what you and Don Barden told me back in the day. That will forever stay embeded in head and heart.

These are people whom I have great respect fot and had the most impact on me throughout my entire life from then to now.

NOW this open letter would not be approved unless I mention the women in my life here on earth whom I believe really care and love me unconditionally an always been in my best intrest.

Teira 
Kishun 
Angel 
Miquella 
Arianna 
Tyeisha 

You ladies have had the most profound affect on my life then you all know. I love you anf greatful for what I learned being with you all. Just know when I die and they shevel dirt in my face just know y'all meant the most to me. I apologies if you ladies felt I ever wrong you in any way. May god bless you all in many ways just know I love you all.

INSH ALLAH HABIBI

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